what you're doing, but, l just--
l don't fit in here.
-How do you know ? You're not even
here now. You're still back there.
-Why'd you come here
in the first place, Bec ?
To try something new, right ?
-Yeah.
-Well, how can you try anything new
if you haven't even left campus yet ?
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So, I feel like the above movie quote might help to explain how I'm feeling right now. I think I am paralyzed because there is a part of me that is not really HERE yet. I miss my friends and family. I regret that I'm not working at KPLU and living in my downtown apartment the way I had planned. I can't stop thinking about how happy I would be if I had never left. And because of this, I'm not FULLY here. In the movie, Becca had the same problem. She left home to go to school across the country and she didn't feel like it was her place to be. With Crawl's help, however, she overcame that feeling. She dyed her hair, got a tattoo, and dove completely into the Southern California party scene. I feel like maybe that is not exactly what I need to do, but a similar transformation is probably in order. I need to figure out how to BE here, instead of just being here. Sooner rather than later would be great. Any advice?
2 comments:
I would have to say...just hang in there. I hated it when I first moved to Utah, I was so homesick and wanted to leave and go home. Like 2 weeks later, I loved it here and now I never want to leave. That movie, Son in Law...I love it! So funny!
I love that movie! I kinda felt the same way when I went to school. I didn't have a car and I didn't know anyone that was going to school. Granted that it was in Ellensburg and my mommy and daddy could come bail me out at anytime... I was lonely and depressed. You just have to swallow any negative emotions and jump right in. I went to all the activities I could. Introduced myself to people in my classes and tried to never be alone (I would study at the library at the desks that everyone would walk by). It does suck at first but it will be okay before you know it.
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